Loosing Your Love for Blogging – A Personal Story

Over the last week or so, I’ve slowly been coming back out of my hiatus. However, in my hiatus post I kept why I suddenly ‘logged off’, very vague. The truth of it was that I had lost my love for blogging. Strangely enough, despite my own post about not getting bogged down by stats, or treating blogging like a chore – I did just that. Proving that bloggers can be their own worst enemy. 

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Over the last few months, I was religiously checking my visitor count, and seeing it drop off. When I googled my reviews or posts, I noticed my google ranking for posts I thought were pretty solid & successful had significantly dropped! It was depressing to see, and honestly broke my heart. I didn’t know what had happened, I tried everything I could to fix it. I read up on SEO, obsessed over alt tags, backlinks and Google Analytics. I didn’t understand any of it, but I spent hours, even staying up till 4 AM reading SEO recommendation posts. 

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I found sites that measured domain authority, page authority and global website ranking (whatever those terms means). But all they did was make me feel worse. I’ve been blogging for three and a half years, and all that hard work and love came down to a measly score out of a hundred. A low score at that. And then I realised, that I was the one giving that number power, I was the one going ‘my website is only worth a #/100′, what I’m doing is worthless’. But that’s not fair, it’s not fair to me who treats my blog like my baby, not fair to the blogging community that I’m part of and definitely not fair to my readers.

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So to cut what could be potentially long and sappy post short, I’ll just quickly sum up this epiphany I had. Yes, it’d be cool to be the top blog out there, to be the next Anime News Network or Honey’s Anime. But, I should view success as a by-product or bonus of doing what I love. Not doing what I love so that I will be successful – because that’s just a poisonous way of thinking.

17 thoughts on “Loosing Your Love for Blogging – A Personal Story

  1. Realistically, none of us going it alone are ever going to be one of the Big Boyz in the business. Because the Big Boyz have access to tools, finances and manpower that we don’t. They are able to boost their way up the search rankings and whatever via fair means or foul, and we just can’t compete.

    And that’s fine, really. That’s also why we’re better: we’re more personal, we’re more relatable, we offer something unique. Just because something is the top of Google doesn’t mean it’s the best; more often than not it just means someone has figured out the optimum combination of words to spam their page with to make them appear “authoritative”. And the quality of the article suffers as a result.

    Bear in mind people come to your posts via far more ways than just a Google search for something. It might be social media, it might be a link on a forum, it might be a chat message between friends. In those contexts, you’re more likely to be valued by real people rather than algorithms.

    But ultimately none of it matters. Do what you do because you enjoy it. If you don’t enjoy it, don’t feel bad about stepping away, even if it’s temporarily. If it’s not your job, don’t force yourself to treat it like one. Rediscover that love for just writing and, as you say, success will follow.

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    1. Thank you! I really have to remember that those human interactions are what makes blogging worth it. Recently I saw one of my referrers was a Facebook group chat and it just brought a smile to my face – I wondered what they were talking about and which one of my posts they linked to, it was nice to see that my post had a small moment, and it is those small moments that I’ve really gotta learn to treasure and value. A genuine connection with a reader is worth a lot more than a bunch of numbers!


  2. I’m sorry you’ve been feeling this way. But I wanted to say that I’m a big fan of your blog. What I personally look for is quality and not popularity. I respect bloggers who are genuine and have a passion for what they do, and you’re both quality and passion! Doing what you love is most important, and anything else will follow! Sending lots of hugs!

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  3. I think we all understand how you feel. I get bummed out for the rest of the day every time I notice my follower count drop. To the point that I removed the number so I wouldn’t see it and then just kept checking it from my stats page instead making everything worse and gave in and put it back.
    And the saddest pat is that I honestly do not want to be the next ANN. Numbers man, they’ve been doing crazy things to our brains since the dawn of time!

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    1. Oh gosh I know that feeling! I had the WordPress app on my phone for about a week and had to uninstall it, I’d be in the middle of a family dinner and refreshing it to see if anyone visited my blog, it was awful. Numbers are just evil 😂

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  4. Sorry to hear that you were going through a rough time. Hopefully you find your love of blogging again. As much as I am trying to build up my blog, it is something I do because I love and I don’t ever want to let it feel like something I’m forced to do or something I do out of an obligation. I think that will be the end of my blog if it gets there, not because I’ll stop but because no one would really want to read it if that was the feeling behind it. Best of luck in finding a balance and know that your followers do appreciate what you do.

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  5. Stats suck! It’s scary how numbers on a screen can get that kind of power over you but it happens all the time. To most of us at some point I’m sure. I went into my blog with the mind that numbers don’t count. Because i learned the hard way just how low I can sink and how demotivated I can be when I start to work for numbers instead of love. My YouTube channel broke me but it also made me realise what was important. I haven’t made a video in over a year but I’m here blogging instead. Well videos is an exaggeration, they are only amvs but still. Anyway, I’m glad you are back and that a little wiser too. Fuck stats!!

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    1. Right? I also found when I was writing for stats, I was always waiting for that next ‘high’ or ‘spike’ in my statistics, it almost was influencing my daily mood – so yeah definitely time to step back and 100% fuck stats!!

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  6. Very relatable post. When I first started blogging I was ~obsessed~ with those numbers, thinking “why aren’t more people reading my content? aren’t I good enough?” But after reassessing my priorities I’ve come to the realization that I need to blog for me and not anyone else, I need to blog about things I need to talk about it, even if its just to talk about how much I enjoyed a piece of fan-service in a particular episode of a particular seasonal show. Does that make me more niche, and less likely to “break through”? Yes. But more importantly, does it make me happy? That’s a big yes.

    Anyway, hope you find the love for blogging again!

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    1. Thank you! It’s such a frustrating place to be in, and I’ll definitely be spending some time to reassess my priorities – I gotta find that motivation to write for myself again rather than for the stats!

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  7. It’s impossible not to look at stats. Even if you don’t look at the stats pages themselves, you still notice the number of likes and WordPress notifications. And I think everyone can relate to the frustration. It’s disheartening when stuff you’ve worked so hard on has such low stats yet you see people with simple posts have dozens upon dozens of likes and views.
    I do hope you find the passion though. I just try to keep in mind the positive, even though it’s hard.

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    1. Ahh it’s so frustrating, stats, and comparing myself to other bloggers are just two evils that go hand in hand 😂 but at least I’m aware of it and can work towards feeling more confident in my blog and gaining my passion back!

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  8. Have you ever read Seth Godin? My wife (a social media expert herself) introduced me to him. He’s all about building long term relationships. I think what he has to say might be comforting to you.

    It’s easy to drive up hit count; all you have to do is cater. Jump on trends. Specialize in click-bait headlines. Write what you think the masses want to read. But that’s not you. The trick (which is ridiculously hard) is to find the metrics that tell you if you’re succeeding on your terms.

    Seth Godin’s blog might give you some insights.


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